Just Start…Facing Fear Head On

Just Start. This has been my motto for the past few months. I have been determined to get this blog up and running after dreaming of doing it for the last few years.

 Although I have been dreaming of starting a blog, I have just never taken the leap to do it. 

What was holding me back you might ask?  FEAR.

FEAR, FEAR, FEAR

After digging deep,  I now know that it is a fear of judgement, a fear or rejection, a fear of failure and all of those fears wrap up into one of my biggest fears – public speaking.

When I am in person and in a small group or one on one, I am such an open person. I am a talker and an open book. I will talk to anyone and really talk about anything:) Amazingly, it really doesn’t even have to be a close friend! I can get into a conversation with someone anywhere I go, but blogging feels so different to me. 

It feels like public speaking.

Even though it is just me and my computer as I write, it feels like talking in front of a large group. Once I hit “publish”, it is out there for anyone to see and judge.

When I think about that, the fear creeps in.

I start to hear those questions in my head. Questions like, “Can I really do this?”, “Is this even worth it?”, “What will they think and say about me?”, and “I should just stick with what I am already doing?”.

SO then WHY am I doing this? 

Because I can’t let fear win:)

I truly believe this has been calling me and starting this has me so excited.

I know that I just need to push those thoughts out of my head and START.

If I can just START, who knows where it can go and who I will meet along the way:)

I will end with a quote that I heard on the Goal Digger Podcast,  as Jenna Kutcher interviewed Sarah Herron (from the bachelor). Sarah mentioned something that authors Renee Brown and Liz Gilbert were talking about and it really resonated with me as I embark on this journey.

Sarah quoted them as saying,

“When you are kid you create in color and you have no fears of how people are going to judge it or perceive it. You just create unapologetically. More people need to approach creativity and projects from a childlike wonder and just dive in and let it take shape the way that it does. It might turn out to be a Jenna Kutcher empire or it might be a side project of side hustle. Just starting is the hardest part and I think that if we can remove that fear barrier, it will bring so much more creative abundance into our lives.”

So here I am just starting. Trying to jump in with a childlike wonder and pushing past my fears….on a minute by minute basis (just being real;).